It’s been awhile…  Many days.  I’m afraid I’ve been so busy lately.  Let me recap…

I never did get that job at that certain dollar store.  They led me along for almost three months…  I, however, now have a job at a certain fast food chain.  It doesn’t start with a M, W, or B, though.  It feels nice, to be working towards my own money.

Also, I did recieve that photography mentorship that I wanted.  It’s been pretty decent.  I’ve been on set for two photo sessions now.  I’m a little worried about not obtaining enough hours, though…

Another worry: scholarships.  I recieved one from my choice school, for $1,050.  But the school costs $8,000.  I believe this is a point of worry, no? I really need scholarships.

Graduation also steadily approaches.  I believe it was forty-four more days of school the last time I counted? I am so glad.  I cannot wait to be done.  I’m still scared, mind you, but the lack of sleep is severely outweighing the fear.
And lack of sleep it is.  I’m so worried all the time about school.  Homework, tests, projects.  I need to still buy a yearbook and a prom dress.  Not to mention prom and after-prom tickets.  My, my.  Why didn’t anyone tell me this year was so hectic?

My, my…

It seems that I’m so very busy lately.  So many deadlines and…  Just, oh my.
Monday night, my group is performing our awful talent portion for our School Board.  I might suggest to them that we should have a burn party for our outfits afterwards.  But first…I really must figure out where I put that outfit…
Tuesday, I’m going to an all-school day meeting for a mentorship program that I was accepted into.  I’m very excited to start, because I’m hoping that I will get the photography mentor that I asked for.

Speaking of being accepted, I was accepted into my choice college! I was very excited for this.  I was quite afraid that I would be denied, and Older Sister would just have one more thing to tease me about…  I am not rather fond of her teasing.  (At least my ACT score was higher than hers.  Oh, how mad she was about that! She wouldn’t talk to me for the rest of the day.)
Now that I am accepted, I have many, many deadlines for scholarships and the FAFSA that I have to prepare for.  (Where did my free days go…?)

Also, next week, I should be hearing back about whether or not I received the job.  A job I’ve probably been working on obtaining for about a month now…? I’m not exactly sure.  It’s the furthest I’ve ever been, though.  So I’m holding onto this until the very end.

Next Friday will be the start of a convention that I’m attending.  I’m also quite excited about this.  I have no idea how I’m getting there, but I know that Wife Friend has many friends going.  I also know that Monotone Friend has a group of friends going, and they will probably have to be in our group as well.  This…I’m not really looking forward to, as it seems that they might be the very type of people that I’m not fond of in the least.  Also, Brother Friend is most likely not coming.  First Friend was saying that we should drive the three hours (six hours altogether) to his house and take him ourselves.  This plan was met with much gusto until we realized that we would also have to drive him back to his house (another six hour trip roundway), and that would be quite a few miles.
Now…  Now I’m not so sure we’re going to be making that trip.  No one wants to drive twelve hours in a three day span.

Ah well…  Hopefully I won’t be so busy after all this.  I need some time to wind down.

Until next time.

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Well…things have been hectic.  Very hectic indeed.
I had my wisdom teeth removed yesterday.  My cheeks and jaw have swollen, and I now have the square chin of a certain caped crusader…  I’ve been putting ice on my cheeks though, so hopefully they’ll deflate.

School has been busy lately.  Our final exams are the upcoming Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday.  I only have four, so I’m not too worried.
I’ve also been busy trying my hardest to get a job at a certain dollar store.  I have to turn my application back in.  It’s been very…  Hm.  What to call it? I’ve just been back and forth with them a lot, and hopefully I’ll get this job.  I really hope I do, with all the effort I’ve put into it…

A certain convention is coming up that I’m going to with my friends.  They keep inviting different people and…  I really don’t know what’s going on with all of this.  I really don’t mind either way, as long as I have some way to get there and back.  I’m really hoping Brother Friend will be able to attend as well.

Music seems to be playing a big part of my life again, especially with those iPod speakers I received for Christmas.  It’s fun to sing along to Lady Gaga and Automatic Loveletter, The Hush Sound and f(x)…

I’m looking a bit towards second semester, and a bit…well…not towards it.  I’ll have more periods with my Wife Friend, and K-Pop Friend dropped a P.E. class to stay in my Study Hall…  These are good.  But I accepted a mentorship, and I might be having a job.  These are good and bad…  I’m sure I’ll have fun with the mentorship, and I need money, but I’m not really the type that likes to have places to be all the time.  It will probably cut into my homework time, as well.  And K-Pop Friend wants me to join the school musical…  I don’t think she realizes how limited my time will be…
Regardless, we’re all hurtling towards second semester.  Each day is just another day closer to graduation.  I’m looking forward to the sleeping in, mostly.

If music is a big part of my time lately, so is writing.  I’ve been concocting another story.  One I believe is a little more dramatic and mature than my usual brand of comedy.  I hope it will be accepted by readers on the website I host my stories as well.

I’m not really sure how to end this time, so…  Until later.

I’ve been so busy lately.  Just busy, busy, busy.  I would call myself a bee, but well…  I’m not much in the mood for cliché today.  (My, how often I use that word…)
I’ve had many meetings for my group lately.  Today, Sunday, and Monday.  I have a dress rehearsal for my group tomorrow, and possibly a meeting on Friday.  I know for sure that I have a meeting on Saturday.  On Sunday, we’ll all go to the competition.  It will take all of Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday, so I’ll get out of school for those two days.
Also…  I’ve had a lot of homework lately.  A project due in my Government class, reading and journaling to do for my English class, and a lot of Spanish passages to read for…well…Spanish IV.
Tomorrow, I have to go get a part for my dad and call up that store again.  The manager hasn’t been there the past few times I’ve called.  Then that dress rehearsal of course…
Next Friday, the 15th, I am having my wisdom teeth removed.  I’m sure I’ll look like a pufferfish, or something of the like.

These past two days, we’ve had two hour dismissals.  I rather wish that they had just called off those days…  Ah, school, I tire of you so easily…

Oh, and I accepted a mentorship.  Well…I’m not sure that “accepted” is the right word.  I applied for one, rather.  In photography.  I’m not sure I’ll be able to do it, but…  It’d be fun to try.

January 29th-31st is when Ohayocon will be taking place.  It is the largest anime convention in the state of Ohio.  I have already purchased my ticket, and I believe I’m going with quite a large group…  This will be interesting.  Especially since Brother Friend might be able to go! I haven’t seen him since April, and even then, he was sick…and passed the disease on to me…  Yes…that was…interesting.  (I lost my voice for a few days…)  So, to be able to see him for the first time in quite a few months, I will be most joyful.  (Aha, I should probably stop watching Up.)

Ah! Speaking of movies! I received my copy of Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs today! It’s K-Pop Friend’s and my movie.  So I’m not allowed to watch for the first time without her.  We are so strange, her and I…

Ah! I also finally finished reading the second book of that series.  The one that I mentioned a while ago? They are all around seven hundred pages, so I’m quite glad that I finally finished the second one.  XD Now there’s the third…

That seems to be all that I can think of right now…  I’m terribly sorry for the random mess of occurrences and thoughts, but…  My mind is moving at about a thousand miles right now, and I don’t think I can find the emergency brake…

Until next time…!

But ah, I was young.  And the young never realize how quickly it all fades.  They sleep in their beds with dreams of sweet candy and mommy’s embrace, her warm kiss on their forehead.

To be that again…  To be so innocent and easily loved.  To not understand the world and its evils.  Ah…to be that again.

But the clock remained on its course for midnight, a sneering chuckle hidden behind its red numbers.  Still, I curled on my bed, a hand tucked between my cheek and the pillowcase.  The clock would not stop for me, just as it had never stopped for any man or woman.  Instead, it teased and taunted with a half-smirk and laughter.

By then, the worst part was the waiting.  11:45…  11:48…  11:50.  How much longer did I have? What could I do to make some mark, some memorable moment of my almost eighteen years of childhood? Should I find some crime to commit, only to hide under the shelter of my still-minor age? Should I call up a friend to take me anywhere, anywhere after midnight to dedicate a rare drink to my life before adulthood? Should I lose the last innocence I owned in a flurry of hands and too-fast kisses just to show that my innocence was finally mine to barter with and give away?

I lay on my bed, the clock tick-tick-ticking only in my head, the invisible minute hand of my life turning forever clockwise.

The clock blinked twelve.

“Happy Birthday.”

I called back a small dollar store today.  I applied there a few days ago.  I think I might actually have a better chance with this one…  The eagerness is in my bones. Call me back, I am begging you.

I have been listening to music lately.  Particularly “Bad Romance” by Lady Gaga.  It is one of those songs that are hard to get out of your head once they are in.  They just burrow their way in.  Like moles…or foxes.  Sly as foxes, that’s what they are.
I watched the music video.  I think she is really coming into her own as an artist.  I don’t really agree with her fashion choices, but that music video…  The story was almost deep in a way.  I rather enjoyed it.  I’m sure there are people who don’t agree with me, but…  That’s how I viewed it.
I enjoyed the fake-looking skeleton at the end.  XD

School is right around the corner again…  Sigh, sigh, sigh…  I’m not really looking forward to it.  I’m tired of school.  Senioritis, I suppose you could call it.  Not even March…  Not even February…  My, my, I feel as though I am becoming lazier by the moment…

I feel almost as if I am eagerly awaiting something, but I don’t know just what that something is.  What could it be? I’m not very sure.
Ah, well.  Maybe it’s better not to dwell on it.

Until next time, Happy New Year’s.

We cut the trip a little short, but that’s really to be expected…  Our trips are usually cut short.  People never do well in small hotel rooms together.

Wife Friend invited me to go to the movies today, but I couldn’t go.  I felt bad, because she really wanted someone to go with her.  I tried to be able to, but…there isn’t any way…

I’ve been dreaming again, today.  Different things…  I had an actual dream last night.  It was pretty strange.  But my daydreams are the same…  I’m a little too predicable.  XD

There is a lot of snow outside right now.  Lots and lots.  I might look at it later, try to see it before the younger sisters go outside, running around until their cheeks and noses are red, breathing smoke clouds into the air.  Little kids look cute like that.

I saw that there was finally a view.  Yesterday, I believe.  Someone looked at the post because it mentioned Locks of Love.  It’s nice to know that people look up charitable organizations.  I wonder if maybe they were looking to donate.  That would be nice…  If they were someone that needs the services of the organization…then I hope they find what they’re looking for.

Ah, I just remembered that I need to turn my application in…  Always some application that needs to be taken in.  I think I’ll wait until my hair is dry and I can fix it.  Maybe I’ll just wait until tomorrow.  Maybe…

Maybe…

It was a decent Christmas.  The food was good, I enjoyed my presents.  It’s not too cold in the house…  That’s good.

I’m leaving tomorrow.  For South Carolina.  We’re going to visit my foster grandparents.  Or something like that.  I don’t know what else we’re doing.  Neither do my parents, really.
It seems weird that it took eighteen years for our family to actually take a trip during my Winter Break.  We’ve never been the type to leave during the winter months…

After that…  I was supposed to have my wisdom teeth taken out, but I think we’re moving that.  “You must be so full of wisdom to have so many so soon!” Someone told me that.  I’m not sure I believe her, because she also told my group that we looked good in our costumes.  (We look horrendous in them.)

I had my hair cut finally.  On Tuesday.  I’m pretty sure I’ve already mentioned this.  (And everything else.  I tend to do this.)  I’m pleased with it.  I saw myself in the mirror afterwards, a few hours afterwards.  I was taken back a little by how cute it was.  I know this sounds arrogant, but damn, I hardly ever feel cute.  I take it when I can.  Of course, my little sister had to ruin it somewhat by calling it retarded…  And my older sister said I looked like the maternal leader of a certain 60s sitcom, but oh well.  She always says that.

Not much has really been happening lately.  I wake up, spend my day bored, then go to sleep.  It’s a bit of a systomatic…well…cycle.  I imagine it will return to a different type of cycle once school starts up again.
Ah, school…  School.  I somehow want to be done with you.  And somehow…I don’t.  But I’m going to nip this in the bud before it becomes another long rant of becoming older and the real world, and all that whatnot.

I think we’re all just a bit tired of those.

On Monday, I have a meeting to attend.  I’m not really looking forward to it as it requires me to wake up early.  I’m against anything that requires me to be up before eleven in the morning just on principal.  But I’ve already missed two of the meetings, one because I slept through it, and the other due to sickness, so I have to attend all the ones to come.

On Tuesday, I have to go to my hairdresser.  I’m looking forward to this as I haven’t been able to cut my hair since February 2009.  Almost a year.  That grosses me out, frankly.  I wonder if my hair will be long enough to donate to Locks of Love.  I gladly would if it is.  Anything to help out those brave fighters.
I’m also looking forward to seeing people’s reactions, really.  In a small little girlish part of me, I can’t wait to see their shocked faces.  Just a childish bit of my personality, I suppose.

After Tuesday, I don’t really believe I’m doing anything.  Friday is Christmas, of course…  After Christmas, we’re going down to visit my foster grandparents and coming back on the 29th so that I can have my wisdom teeth ripped out on the 30th.  I have another meeting on the 31st, but I am most likely skipping that one…

I don’t know if I ever mentioned it, but I put an application in to a certain company on Monday the 14th.  I haven’t received any response from them.  I probably am not going to.  Oh well…  On to the next hope…

But in the beginning, just at first, there was always that untouched beauty.  A virgin landscape, only to be seen.

To touch it was to destroy it.